Saturday January 22
Well,
Everyone hates people talking out of their asses.
I'm guilty. I don't deserve the friends I have. After my stupid comments, thankfully, a number of my readers spoke some truth into my garbage. Saying I'm sorry isn't enough this time. It's obvious I've cut deep. I honestly can't remember what I was thinking when I wrote the last post. I give no excuses. I deserved every word of what you all said. As I read over it, I realized that I may have possibly caused everyone out there to question themselves. I didn't want that. I can't think of anything I can do, if there is tell me. I am truly sorry. I really didn't mean to attack or criticize anyone, but I did. All I can do is ask for forgiveness. I know I don't deserve it. I shouldn't even be asking for it. Not only did I hurt a lot of people, I made an ass of myself in the progress. I wish I could take it all back. I wish it never happened.
To matt - i don't know how you can say "love ya" to an arse like me after what i said. But the fact that you did made all the difference to me.
To dalton - I'll stick from now on to what I know. I hope this can be one of those arguments we forget and live on like nothing happened.
To olivia - I'm sorry. I know those words aren't enough. Josh is a great guy. And you are exactly right in every word u wrote. I'm bitter at myself for not finding a girlfriend yet let alone a wife. I love you, as a friend of course, soooo much. please forgive. (I hope i'm invited to your wedding)
To charn - who are you?
and to sarah... i've known you the longest. shared the battle fields of cobourg soccer with you. Probably pissed you off more than anyone here. As i think of what to say to you I remember the days of building a Rube Goldberg machine in your garage. Spending hours trying to get your radio to turn on with a jimmy-rigged moustrap and a tape+ball bearing+bouncy ball projectile. I can think of countless times when you could have yelled at me for something and you never did. I wish I could understand and learn your patience. And now after what I said you offer wisdom. I apologize for evertime I've ticked u off and you never chewed me out. I apologize for being an ass at new years. And i'm sorry for what I said.
That's all. I'm taking that post down in hopes to erase it from my memory. Probably won't be awhile till you hear from me again.
I gotta lot of thinking to do.
Everyone hates people talking out of their asses.
I'm guilty. I don't deserve the friends I have. After my stupid comments, thankfully, a number of my readers spoke some truth into my garbage. Saying I'm sorry isn't enough this time. It's obvious I've cut deep. I honestly can't remember what I was thinking when I wrote the last post. I give no excuses. I deserved every word of what you all said. As I read over it, I realized that I may have possibly caused everyone out there to question themselves. I didn't want that. I can't think of anything I can do, if there is tell me. I am truly sorry. I really didn't mean to attack or criticize anyone, but I did. All I can do is ask for forgiveness. I know I don't deserve it. I shouldn't even be asking for it. Not only did I hurt a lot of people, I made an ass of myself in the progress. I wish I could take it all back. I wish it never happened.
To matt - i don't know how you can say "love ya" to an arse like me after what i said. But the fact that you did made all the difference to me.
To dalton - I'll stick from now on to what I know. I hope this can be one of those arguments we forget and live on like nothing happened.
To olivia - I'm sorry. I know those words aren't enough. Josh is a great guy. And you are exactly right in every word u wrote. I'm bitter at myself for not finding a girlfriend yet let alone a wife. I love you, as a friend of course, soooo much. please forgive. (I hope i'm invited to your wedding)
To charn - who are you?
and to sarah... i've known you the longest. shared the battle fields of cobourg soccer with you. Probably pissed you off more than anyone here. As i think of what to say to you I remember the days of building a Rube Goldberg machine in your garage. Spending hours trying to get your radio to turn on with a jimmy-rigged moustrap and a tape+ball bearing+bouncy ball projectile. I can think of countless times when you could have yelled at me for something and you never did. I wish I could understand and learn your patience. And now after what I said you offer wisdom. I apologize for evertime I've ticked u off and you never chewed me out. I apologize for being an ass at new years. And i'm sorry for what I said.
That's all. I'm taking that post down in hopes to erase it from my memory. Probably won't be awhile till you hear from me again.
I gotta lot of thinking to do.
posted by BMF at
2:29 PM
3 Comments:
I love you very much (as a friend ;) And I forgive you 100%. You're a wonderful person, Buck. You've got so many gifts and talents (if you want to know exactly what I think those are, give me a call and I'll tell ya). Please try not to be bitter about not having a girlfriend. God's timing is always perfect.
Love
Liv
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Anonymous, at 4:12 PM
Buck,
It takes a strong person to admit to their mistakes and apologize. Although I didn't read the rant that apparently upset some of your friends, I admire your openess and honesty. You are a wonderful person.
Although you have succeeded in driving me crazy at times, you, without a doubt, kept me sane last year - and we had fun in the process (which is amazing, all things considered!)
God has an amazing plan for your life, and if you walk with Him daily you'll get there. As Olivia said, you have so many wonderful talents and qualities, and so much to offer this world. Don't ever second guess yourself. You'll find that girl - you've got plenty of time - and who knows, maybe she'll even cook a mean stir-fry!
Love ya,
The Fish
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Anonymous, at 1:08 PM
Buck, i meant what i said - i do love ya.
you're a good friend and always will and when
we muck up in this life, God would want us to
say sorry, and mean it from the heart, and
keep on movin. and that is what you have
done. it takes a real man and a big man to
stand up and apologize for something they
have done wrong and you have shown just what
kind of quality guy you are by doing that.
don't even sweat it. cheers to those times
i'll never forget of watchin homestar runner in
your basement and laughin til the wee hours.
youre a good friend.
matt
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